I get that. There’s a lot of spontaneous changes in direction and a constant feeling that the music is continually evolving in a way. Overwhelmed with varied ideas.
Maybe try following along with lyrics as you go. Apparently there is quite a journey starting with terrifying theme of abuse and trauma before moving on to intense optimism. I read that in a magazine interview with the singer. Might help with the cohesion. I’ll be trying following the lyrics soon.