Unfortunately you are doomed. Twelve step programs are useless in this area. Don't even think about going to any audio shows, for if you do, terminal 'upgraditis' will set in. In the short term, the only hope is that you have a few college educations to pay for. That way your pocket will be much lighter for many, many years. Once those educations are paid for, trouble will return. However, your inability to do any grade should last for about 20 years. Maybe by then your hearing will be failing and that will confirm that upgrading will not permit you to hear anything better then you have now. Enjoy the the music.