I’m not sure you are a victim.
I think your lusting is probably justifiable. I have been an audiophile for over fifty years. I have methodically researched and upgraded my systems over that time. My tastes have slowly and consistent moved towards the musical warm side. You can see my current systems under my ID.
While I have been attracted to tubes… reluctant as well. Now, I am completely dedicated to tubes… and it has propelled the sound of my system to be what I always wanted.
I have lived in Japan for over two years. I really appreciate the aesthetic and commitment Japanese dedicate to a passionate discipline. For instance I have collected fountain pens from around the world of all time periods. The Japanese fountain pens are only comparable to the vary best Italian. True passionate achievements of endless iterations to achieve perfection.
I would absolutely commit to put together a Shindo system. If I had another space… perhaps a smaller one… I would absolutely do it. I am sure you will be rewarded handsomely. If you do, keep me in the loop. I would love to hear how it goes.