Listening

@immatthewj
Very wise to peel back on that stern warning sign! Good on you. Some guys never get a warning through decades of abuse (including seemingly perfect liver/enzyme numbers), then wake up all yellow one day and it’s game over. We’re both lucky.

But I just cannot get to where you are with the brain chemicals yet. At least not most of the time. It can be good, but it’s never been as much fun.

Truthfully, if I was in a better place, both mood wise and actual location, I’d take up THC products again as that used to truly make my listening experience magical.

It was a slooow recovery process for sure, but every year the ice breaks a bit more and life gets better. But also yeah - expectation mangement - it’s never gonna be as WOW as when all the stars and substances aligned lol. Always fleeting on the latter, though. THC never did it for me, personally - usually leads to either anxiety or sleepiness and the few times it actually felt good lasted about 5 seconds lol. Edibles in particular were wildly unpredictable for me. Usually they did NOTHING but there was one time that lead to a 5 hour anxiety/panic attack after a 2 hour delay, haha never again.

What do I do while I listen?

My best guess would be:

1. Sit and listen.     60%

2. Cooking.            30%

3. Miscellaneous.  10%

1) Tie trout flies for a fly shop on Michigan's Au Sable River.

2) Tend to my online collectable postage stamp store.

3) Build period model wooden ships ( each one takes a year or two).

I love it when I am doing one of the above and a cut comes on my system that is so good it causes me to stop, and  just listen (a WOW moment).

when I listen, it's music only, no distractions. if I'm doing stuff around the house, there is always music playing as a soundtrack to my day but it's just whatever plays on qobuz, I don't program lists or anything like that.

Eyes closed, in the sweet spot, dedicated room for the main system.

Two other systems are used for background music when desired.