@grislybutter Never, ever, EVER, have I compared my situation to another person and say mine is worse or theirs is worse. It’s not up to me to judge. What are you? I can’t even, am I living in an alternate reality right now?
I find your above post oddly puzzling. You are in incredible pain and you have every rights to feel that way. The fact that you "felt ashamed" because you’re suffering so much while others have "real pain and problem"? And somehow your pains don’t matter?
What are you doing, what is this logic? His pain does not negate yours. It’s perfectly sane to feel both your pain and the pain of his situation. This is what normal humans do. They feel pain from multiple angles with varying degree.
Decooney is the only person I remember advising me to contact vendors. And I did, and guess what, all 3 of them couldn’t help. But it was worth a shot.