About Lugnut -- Patrick Malone

Sorry about the above post, I lost my intended message and somehow got this one.

Hi Pat,
I guess my message was swapped with a different thread or lost in cyber-space. Sorry about that.
I had responded with some extremely insightful and highly profound thoughts that I will attempt to recreate. I had two pearls of wisdom to extend to you. The first is regarding your doctor’s inability to give you clear vision as to your treatment. In my case the doctors have given up attempting to predict my future in that by every statistic available to science, I’m dead. The point is sometimes the doctors simply do not know how a treatment is going to react. I believe that attitude has more to do with your successful treatment than anything. My doctors have gone from year by year to quarter by quarter waiting for the other shoe to drop. The past three years have proven how well the treatments are working, and although they expect me to fail any day, I keep going. In your case your will is strong and you are beating this disease with your will to live every day to its fullest. I know God has great plans for you over the coming months, a portion of those plans have already been shown to you through this web site and your effects on so many of us. You are doing great work for God, and he is not about to loose such an important messenger. The fact that the Taxol is continuing to be effective shows us all how no outcome is inevitable, and how powerful an effect we have over our own bodies. Enjoy the ride, and maybe if all our prayers are answered you will beat this cancer like you did before.
As to the second point, I understand the exhaustion. If I have a day of exertion I too pay the next couple days. If I try to link three days of activity together I pay with a couple weeks. I used to try to believe I could overcome the tiredness and keep going, but for me it ends with congestive heart failure and that requires a full three months of recovery, if I do fully recover. I’ve learned over time what my limits are, but it’s hard to live with them. I get bored and feel sad and lonely. I know I must not over do, the payback is too severe. I believe the fatigue is your body telling you it can not fight the disease and over extend physically. It needs all the resources to fight the cancer and when you go too far you are depleting the reserve. Listen to your body and maybe slow down a bit.
I continue to believe you are going to go into some type of remission; therefore I believe you need to give your body the time it needs. I for one am not ready to let you go. I know God has more for you to do, and selfishly I still need you.
Go out and enjoy, in moderation. I know it’s hard for you. We both were extremely active guys, and a lot of the high we found every day was in physical experiences. It’s hard to change old behavior, but do your best.
I love you Pat and I will pray for strength for you during your trip to Albert’s. I’m so jealous, have a great time!
J.D.

J.D.,

Wize words well spoken. I am learning to slow down but only by the school of hard knocks. I'm an ornery bastard with a thick skull sometimes and this is one example of it. The guys in Dallas looked out for me without making me feel an invalid or inadequate.

I don't have much time to write since I have a busy day ahead. Man, for a guy that doesn't do a lick of work it's funy how I get behind. Tonight will be enjoyable in spite of the chemo today. I picked up a lot of new albums while in Dallas and look forward to giving them a listen.

The Dallas trip was a blast. Albert has an incredible sense of humor and an equal zest for life. You simply could not ask for a better host. He's gracious, kind and giving. It's like we knew each other a lifetime. Plus, surprise, surprise, Cello and Nrchy showed up too. Everyone kept this as a total surprise from me and I was touched.

I could write volumes about Albert's system. What he has done is incredible. Music just emerges from the blackest background I've every experienced. This is no small feat what with probably over 100 tubes in the mix. The coolest part though is just how big a music lover Albert is. The equipment is simply a means to an end. It's that simple. And, what a software collection! So much of what we listened to was new to me so now my list of must get LP's is much longer. His quick wit and endless stream of jokes aside I found that he is much like me. In many ways we are kindred spirits. Perhaps I could best describe him as Lugnut on steroids. It's a shame that Paul could not attend.

It's nice to be home to a more leisurely pace. Dallas is a huge, busy city. I won't complain about traffic around here anymore. Still, for a city that large it is very attractive and incredibly clean. There are at least three truly wonderful places to eat and I suspect there are countless others as well. I hope to go back some time and listen some more, finish that bottle of cognac and bring along a few "new to Albert" LP's now that I have a clearer understanding of what makes up his library.

I hope every one of you is in the mood I'm in. Life is very, very good thanks to my Audiogon friends.

I really don't want to forget about Vetterone. He's a great traveling companion and lots of fun too.

This is just an immediate response. I’ll post a thought out and reasoned response later. I don’t want to get too caught up with thought and reason! I have been looking forward to this weekend since Albert called me and told me he’d kick my sorry white %$#@ if I didn’t show up. I have wanted to meet Pat for many months. I’m not ashamed to say that I have a lot of respect and admiration for him. It has been a life changing event for many people, but to encounter someone on the web is to look though a darkened window when compared to conversing in person. The small amount of money it cost was well spent. Pat is a blast. He’s not as sedate as his comment about Albert being Lugnut on steroids might indicate. He gave the rest of us a run for our money. We hit three very good record stores. I went home with a lot of new vinyl: read, 27 LPs plus a seven LP Pink Floyd box set thanks to a friend of Albert. Thank you Dennis, if you ever read this!!! Thanks also to Louis and Dennis for opening their homes and letting us enjoy their rooms and systems.

We spent many hours listening to music, lying to each other and telling the worst jokes known to all of mankind! Albert put lots of miles on his truck, a fact for which each of us was grateful. Thanks to Cello for dinner Saturday night, and Vetterone on Sunday night!

Having met Patrick made the trip worth the effort, meeting Cello and Vetterone was like winning the lottery and then finding out that the payout was more than you expected. I would love to get to Boise to spend more time with these music lovers.

Thanks to Albert for putting this together and making it possible. The world hasn’t changed, but for four days Albert made it seem smaller.

Boy,,,it sure sounds like you guys had a great time!!!!!!!!Pat,seems like your living a fuller life than most folks without your worries,,,Right on Brother,geez,showing my age with those last 3 words,,,im glad things are going well!!you have a little slice of heaven on earth,,,,an endless supply of audio buddys!