About Lugnut -- Patrick Malone

Dear General Lugnut, do you have any stories of the rare and elusive Hybridonians? I hear they are a wandering lot, not unlike the gypsy. At times warm and comforting, (though it takes a while for them to warm up to you), and at other times they can feel a bit cold and analytical.

I am so glad you came to visit us when I was here to appreciate you. I am enjoying the walk. Dav

Lugnut, Tell us about the Vinylians...Don't just scratch the surface of this great historical epic.

smokester, are you refering to the struggle between the Vinylians and the Digitarians? Lugnut, do tell. On a more serious note I've been following this thread since its beginning. Pat, peace, prayers and understanding to you and Barb. Good luck and peace in your journey. I'll keep my eye on Nrchy for you.

Greg

Hi guys,

I might be feeling funny today but not in a humorous way. I'm not going to elaborate a great deal on this but I'd like to let you all know I do feel considerably better after Friday's treatment. In many ways I'm glad. Very glad. It looks like I'll get a repreive for some amount of time. The problem is that I'm really getting tired of being a yoyo. I'm emotionally drained and physically spent. Each time I've received new help via chemistry I do not get back the physique I had previously. After four successful and then failed treatment programs I'm but a shell of what I once was. Mentally, as I've said several times in this wonderful thread, I'm getting exhausted preparing for the inevitable only to be given a reprieve and having to deal with it yet again. Dealing with this aspect is growing increasingly difficult and tiresome. I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way but a very large part of me wishes that this current regimine had failed out of the gate. I'll certainly make the most out of this time as I have before. I've also shown weakness previously and this group has helped me gain strength quicker than I would have on my own. I've even had my own words thrown back to me in a gentle way to get back on track. All is fair in this thread my friends. I'm posting this in utter honesty, partly to dispell any bravery or other such undeserved notions you may have about old Lugnut. Keep the faith though. I'll get through this fine, especially with your help. I really want you all to know that I'm human just like you, fall down, get up, and carry one the best I can. The thing is, this is getting really hard. It makes little sense. I can't begin to tell you how horrible I felt Thursday night and how much better I feel right now. Somehow though, I take little comfort in it this time knowing that I'll be going through it all over again like in a bad episode of Ground Hog Day.

I just love the ideas you guys brought up for further historical stories. The Lugnut story I posted came easily for me. Feel free to post your own and I promise to enjoy them. I especially feel a pull with regard to the Vinyliams versus the Digitarians. Great ideas all.

Don't worry about me. I'll be okay. We've made plans for the day to listen with friends at our house. That always gets me pumped up on life. Like I have said before, life is pretty good if you choose to participate. I'll try and say that like a mantra today.

Pat, I'm glad I called Friday instead of Thursday, after reading your post. It was great to talk with you again.

I can't imagine the yo-yo to which you refer! To prepare for something dreaded, only to have it postponed is more than I can wrap my little mind around. From a distance you seem to deal with it so well, but the inner turmoil must be profound. I didn't like "Groundhog Day" when it was only a poor movie, much less when it's a part of the life of a friend.

I missed the Star Trek episode about the Vinylians and the Digitarians. Did it have something to do with fingers and rubber gloves??? Reminds me of a recent trip to the... oh, never mind!