About Lugnut -- Patrick Malone

Hi guys,

I might be feeling funny today but not in a humorous way. I'm not going to elaborate a great deal on this but I'd like to let you all know I do feel considerably better after Friday's treatment. In many ways I'm glad. Very glad. It looks like I'll get a repreive for some amount of time. The problem is that I'm really getting tired of being a yoyo. I'm emotionally drained and physically spent. Each time I've received new help via chemistry I do not get back the physique I had previously. After four successful and then failed treatment programs I'm but a shell of what I once was. Mentally, as I've said several times in this wonderful thread, I'm getting exhausted preparing for the inevitable only to be given a reprieve and having to deal with it yet again. Dealing with this aspect is growing increasingly difficult and tiresome. I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way but a very large part of me wishes that this current regimine had failed out of the gate. I'll certainly make the most out of this time as I have before. I've also shown weakness previously and this group has helped me gain strength quicker than I would have on my own. I've even had my own words thrown back to me in a gentle way to get back on track. All is fair in this thread my friends. I'm posting this in utter honesty, partly to dispell any bravery or other such undeserved notions you may have about old Lugnut. Keep the faith though. I'll get through this fine, especially with your help. I really want you all to know that I'm human just like you, fall down, get up, and carry one the best I can. The thing is, this is getting really hard. It makes little sense. I can't begin to tell you how horrible I felt Thursday night and how much better I feel right now. Somehow though, I take little comfort in it this time knowing that I'll be going through it all over again like in a bad episode of Ground Hog Day.

I just love the ideas you guys brought up for further historical stories. The Lugnut story I posted came easily for me. Feel free to post your own and I promise to enjoy them. I especially feel a pull with regard to the Vinyliams versus the Digitarians. Great ideas all.

Don't worry about me. I'll be okay. We've made plans for the day to listen with friends at our house. That always gets me pumped up on life. Like I have said before, life is pretty good if you choose to participate. I'll try and say that like a mantra today.

Pat, I'm glad I called Friday instead of Thursday, after reading your post. It was great to talk with you again.

I can't imagine the yo-yo to which you refer! To prepare for something dreaded, only to have it postponed is more than I can wrap my little mind around. From a distance you seem to deal with it so well, but the inner turmoil must be profound. I didn't like "Groundhog Day" when it was only a poor movie, much less when it's a part of the life of a friend.

I missed the Star Trek episode about the Vinylians and the Digitarians. Did it have something to do with fingers and rubber gloves??? Reminds me of a recent trip to the... oh, never mind!

Ahh, the Vinylians and the Digitarians. Long ago, the Vinylians declared that the world was flat because that is the way the platter was spun. The Digitarians decried that that wasn't the case since the digital domain was all around us. Captain Lugnut (He hadn't made it to General at the time) helped the people to understand that they both were right but they each were on the other side of the fence and should learn to accept each other. Both sides agreed to agree to disagree and just enjoy the music and the Captain became General.

How does that sound. Lugnut, more power to you ;-)

Greg

HELLO AUDIOGON! So enjoyed meeting many of you in Denver at the recent RMAF. Getting together with Pat and Barb was my main reason for coming out and all the nice new people I met and great music was just icing on the cake!

Pat so loves the music and the related equipment to maximize enjoyment. He shares this with his family and his friends freely and often. He has done this for all of the 30 years I've known him since college. As we went from room to room enjoying music and auditioning systems at the RMAF we noticed the demographic of the presenters and the attendees. The age demographic we felt was the most dramatic. Having more young people enjoy high end audio seemed a compelling goal and we agreed it would be good for everybody.

On the plane on the way back home to Omaha I had a flash idea.
I ran it by Pat the other day and he felt touched and comfortable with the idea so here goes:
Let those of us members of the Audiogon and other listening communities pull together and pool our resources both personal and commercial to set up a yearly scholarship in Pat's name.The scholarship offering will be for a selected person(s) under 30 years old to have their tranportation, lodging and admission to the RMAF or other similar event paid for by the foundation. The selection process could be done any number of ways and the number of awards and nominations could vary greatly. The criteria should be simple and forthright. By this posting I hope to start a chain reaction involving many others much more knowledgable than I about the logistics and specifics. I think it is a worthy idea and Pat did as well.

I welcome any and all responses to this query via this forum for all to see, or at my personal email jmccabe1@prodigy.net

Warm Regards to All,
Ampster (Jeff McCabe)

Patrick Elowishis, alias Lugnut, alias Pat Malone, alias part that holds wheel on.

It might not be better living through chemistry, but if it gets you well enough to party with us again at the Porter house, you and the previous gang, TWL and Barb are all welcome.

I am sincerely grateful for the time we spent at RMAF in Denver. That is the first time I had a chance to meet Barb in person. I would wish for angels to watch over you but I believe she beat me to it by standing up for you.

I love you my friend and hope you get better. I may call that doctor yet and give him a thrashing