The OP's symptoms sound much more like a raging neurosis than a mere hobby. If at some point you can't settle down and enjoy the music your rig is capable of, there is something else wrong. It could be emotional or it could be a system matching issue.
Perhaps you're spending too much money on components and not enough to clean up the power (power cords & conditioner), transfer the signal (interconnects and spkr cables), and interact properly with the room (racks, stands, traps, diffusers).
We all go through "kicks" and obsessions; it's what motivates us to do upgrades, which properly done, do improve transparency, coherency, etc. But it should always bring you back to enjoyment of the music. Right now my obsession isn't gear, it's those wonderful new LPs remastered by Bernie Grundman, Steve Hoffman, Kevin Gray, & co. At least I can get my "fix" for $25-35 a pop.
Perhaps you're spending too much money on components and not enough to clean up the power (power cords & conditioner), transfer the signal (interconnects and spkr cables), and interact properly with the room (racks, stands, traps, diffusers).
We all go through "kicks" and obsessions; it's what motivates us to do upgrades, which properly done, do improve transparency, coherency, etc. But it should always bring you back to enjoyment of the music. Right now my obsession isn't gear, it's those wonderful new LPs remastered by Bernie Grundman, Steve Hoffman, Kevin Gray, & co. At least I can get my "fix" for $25-35 a pop.