mother passed away - pro recording help needed


i don't know how to write this request without sounding pathetic but my mother of 62 just passed away due to a misdiagnosis and a horrible hospital mistake (many, in fact.) I'm an artist (mostly dramatic writing but also in various versions of performance art) and i have been breaking down in the most random situations because of my sorrow. I've never been witness to such grief and i think it's worth documenting (for incorporation in some later work, i'm not sure what yet.) i'd like to record myself in these moments and want the best possible sound but it must be portable since i never know when i'm going to freak out. can someone please recommend some system including a mic? I don't like mp3 or minidisc. is there something better? a dat, maybe? regardless, i'm not able to research anything under the circumstances so a detailed recommendation including all the gear i need (including prices for used and new, if possible) would be very much appreciated.

I know others have gone through tragic loses but i hope all others reading this escape such an experience. there are no words to describe the sadness. my mother, like most mothers, was a beautiful person and i'll never be the same without her.

thank you,
dennis

p.s. please excuse me if i don't answer responses or express thanks for them...it's very hard for me to just exist right now but i will certainly be appreciative of any help, whether i'm able to respond it here or not.
kublakhan
Dennis,

Your loss is profound and made worse by the circumstances. I can only wish that you will find peace someday. My prayers are with you.
Kublakhan,

I would try to stay away from portable DAT recorders if you can. The major manufacturers have discontinued all their portables and will stop making replacement parts in the near future. I have three portable DAT decks that I use for recording jam band concerts and I am looking for replacement recorders myself. I suggest that you look at a solid state recorder that uses compact flash or micro hard drives for recording media. Edirol makes a compact flash recorder the R1 that has built in stereo mics and can record 24 bit wav files and fits in the palm of your hand. Look at these two web pages:

http://www.oade.com The Oade Brothers are very helpful and know everything about portable digital recording.

http://www.sonicsense.com Also very knowledgeable about field recording.

I have purchased equipment from both these venders and have been pleased with the service from both. They have a good reputation in the taper community.

Sorry for your loss
Jim
Dennis-

As an audiophile, the easiest solution is a portable tape recorder as mentioned if you don't like Mini-Disc or MP3 recorders.

As a Licensed Mental Health Professional-you might consider getting some assistance. I am sure there are agencies and clinics in your town that you could go to.
You can email me privately and I can get you info if you wish.

Regards-

Tony