facten1, I understand what you mean/feel.
I had a successful business for many years and paid employees well with super benefits, and really enjoyed giving back to the community. One Thanksgiving I provided a traditional meal for 50 homeless people and helped serve it. The person I was dating at the time came with me and seemed to be in a hurry to leave.
I was lucky enough to have success and rather than spend money on me, I tried to be a good employer and citizen of my community. I was awarded a few awards and one was Community Citizen of the Year for the city I lived in. I never hung that, or any other, award in my office or home. What I did that caused people to give me awards was more rewarding than any thing to hang on the wall.