why the angst? There is so much music that we can choose from. If a given Artist doesn’t appeal to your sensibilities, why force it?
Answered above, and I’m not forcing anything, I’m trying to learn. There’s also the purely intellectual pursuit here of understanding the narrative around her albums and their awards. Knowledge is worth pursing even if of a type of art you may not buy for your own home.
Music is rarely a pure pursuit. For instance, it is worth learning about the social, economic and industrial forces that led to the development of hip-hop music as an industry even when you personally may not like listening to it.