My wife had breast cancer while pregnant with our son over sixteen years ago. We also had a 2 year old at the time. I call that our year of hell plus trying to hold onto a high pressure job in IT. My wife is now a 16 year survivor. I'm so sorry for your loss. Reading this post is a reminder for myself and others to appreciate family and life. I lost my dad to dementia a few years back. Never easy loosing people you love. Hold onto the joy of music and revisit those LPs/CDs that you both enjoyed. Try to focus on those good memories, vacations... special moments. Take care!!!