My deepest condolances to you. I cannot imagine the depth of your loss. I know too well that there is little anyone can say to make things any better. I lost my father this past May. For me friends and family have been a great comfort and support. As far as music, and the many things you may have shared with your wife, I'd doubt very much if she'd want you to stop enjoying them in her absense. I understand how they may remind you of your connection, and be difficult to enjoy at this point. Let it be for now. It will come to you, whatever it is you need to do, but do give it time. Everyone is different. I can tell you that, for myself, music, and many things I ordinarily enjoy, have not been the same for me this past year. Everything changes, and this kind of loss affects you in ways you don't even realize. Give it time. Keep your strength.
Marco
Marco