You’re displeased because I had the sickening realization that there are major differences in what money buys you in this hobby.
Not even a little displeased. More like, surprised that you had any sort of revelation at a trade show. You’ve also come to very different conclusions than I have, so again, surprised, but if you want to be unhappy about your life choices I’m not about to get in your way.
Your original post, and this one, are very emotional but also very generic. What system would you say caused you to have such an epiphany? What speakers and system, how was the room set up, what did you hear and what are the actual sound characteristics you feel now you are missing?
As I read your original post, and the one above, what you seem to most be upset about is not being able to spend as much as you want to. That's not the same as not being able to have a certain musical experience.
But like I said, I'm not about to get in your way of your tears. Let them all out.